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chrisisofaith) wrote2020-08-20 12:31 pm
chrisisofaith) wrote2020-08-20 12:31 pm
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You're being gifted with fertility? People like presents? I honestly don't know.
Earth holidays are weird.
Are you doing anything for the love one? People do things on that day, right?
Are you doing anything for the love one? People do things on that day, right?
[This certainly is her swallowing hard and pacing as she types, deletes, re-types, deletes again, and then finally sends a message.]
I have no idea what I'm doing. I only
[Is this bad to admit? Wolfe already knows, and Chris knows they're... something, so it's... fine, right? ...she'll assume so.]
It was only fair to tell him. He deserved the chance to decide for himself.
[No she didn't deliberately not touch the 'I hope you're happy' part. Nope.]
I have no idea what I'm doing. I only
[Is this bad to admit? Wolfe already knows, and Chris knows they're... something, so it's... fine, right? ...she'll assume so.]
It was only fair to tell him. He deserved the chance to decide for himself.
[No she didn't deliberately not touch the 'I hope you're happy' part. Nope.]
I'm going to pretend I'm not dating anyone and hope no one notices that Valentine's Day exists.
[Okay, that makes him laugh.]
That bad, is it?
That bad, is it?
[Okay, he can take a little pity..if only because, more often than not, the times he's told someone he's loved them have come with him crying and trying to convince them not to love him back in the same breath, so...]
From one mess to another, I promise you no one knows what they're doing. I doubt Hawke knows what he's doing.
So you continue on as you were with more readily available kisses and see where things go.
From one mess to another, I promise you no one knows what they're doing. I doubt Hawke knows what he's doing.
So you continue on as you were with more readily available kisses and see where things go.
[That... helps. A little. Amelia's still very flustered right now.]
I'm not certain you understand how terrifying this is for me. I've worked to be alone my entire adult life. This wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't supposed to have feelings and he wasn't
[Deep breaths. Dreams, why must this be so hard?]
I'm sorry. Wolfe has heard all of this. I don't need to repeat it to you.
I don't want to fuck this up. He's a good man and I truly love him. Hurting him would be... beyond a travesty in my eyes.
I'm not certain you understand how terrifying this is for me. I've worked to be alone my entire adult life. This wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't supposed to have feelings and he wasn't
[Deep breaths. Dreams, why must this be so hard?]
I'm sorry. Wolfe has heard all of this. I don't need to repeat it to you.
I don't want to fuck this up. He's a good man and I truly love him. Hurting him would be... beyond a travesty in my eyes.
It is an obnoxious amount of red and pink
And sweets
And sweets
I think I understand perfectly.
I wasn't made for this
I'm meant for other things
I could be a danger to him
I'll only snare him down
What if I ruin his life? What if he's making a mistake?
Have I tricked him into thinking he wants this?
I'm sure there's plenty more, I could go on, but tell me if I'm off my mark
I wasn't made for this
I'm meant for other things
I could be a danger to him
I'll only snare him down
What if I ruin his life? What if he's making a mistake?
Have I tricked him into thinking he wants this?
I'm sure there's plenty more, I could go on, but tell me if I'm off my mark
[...sigh.]
You know you're on it.
But you forgot to add that I will hurt him. That's inevitable here. I've told him as much.
You know you're on it.
But you forgot to add that I will hurt him. That's inevitable here. I've told him as much.
Edited (had to tack on that extra line >>;) 2023-02-14 19:31 (UTC)
And... emotional.
The colors aren't really a problem.
The colors aren't really a problem.
Emotional?
Your emotions don't stop any other day of the year, why's this one got sway?
Your emotions don't stop any other day of the year, why's this one got sway?
Of course you will. Not because you're you but because two people being intimate with each other will hurt each other.
It's what you do when it happens that matters, not the if.
It's what you do when it happens that matters, not the if.
They don't stop. The problem with this one for me is that there's more demand than usual for emotional display.
The older I get the more that pisses me off, on any day.
It's just more on Valentine's
The older I get the more that pisses me off, on any day.
It's just more on Valentine's
How is that different? I don't want to do that at all. He deserves better than someone who loves him hurting him in the first place.
[Can he see her thoughts spiraling? She certainly feels it right now.]
[Can he see her thoughts spiraling? She certainly feels it right now.]
No one wants to do that. And maybe he deserves someone who won't hurt him but that person doesn't exist. You're caught on a notion that love is clean and simple when it's as messy as hate or anger.
[She's panicking, isn't she? He feels like he can hear it.]
Amelia. Take a breath. Count in five and out four. Tell me when you've done this.
[She's panicking, isn't she? He feels like he can hear it.]
Amelia. Take a breath. Count in five and out four. Tell me when you've done this.
Please tell me Amelia heard wrong and your whole household isn't to be arrested, because otherwise I have words for Jon.
Why didn't you tell me? When did this happen? WHY did this happen?
Why didn't you tell me? When did this happen? WHY did this happen?
You absolute ass. I'm fine. I don't need to do your breathing exercise because I'm right. I know love isn't simple, but I don't believe for a single second that he doesn't deserve better than someone who will knowingly hurt him at some point!
[No breathing, but there is a yell across the patio off the back of the house that helps.]
I'm not about to run or do anything rash, but believe me when I tell you this will always be a worry of mine.
[No breathing, but there is a yell across the patio off the back of the house that helps.]
I'm not about to run or do anything rash, but believe me when I tell you this will always be a worry of mine.
[Oh for fuck's sake.]
Take a breath.
She did not hear wrong, Jon got a citation and they're roping myself and Martin in as well.
We found out on the day the Finder went up. Jon took it very poorly. Like needed intervention poorly. Then the wedding and various other things, I'd intended to tell you today.
Take a breath.
She did not hear wrong, Jon got a citation and they're roping myself and Martin in as well.
We found out on the day the Finder went up. Jon took it very poorly. Like needed intervention poorly. Then the wedding and various other things, I'd intended to tell you today.
You're not making your case for someone thinking rationally
[ Okay. That tracks. That makes sense and there's no reason for him to actually go to Marzipan Terrace and... Do what, exactly? He's itching with the need to fix it, do something, help in some way, but their situation simply and plainly prevents it. ]
What do you need?
I have a fund, Festival could easily buy out your contract for the duration. Potentially Martin's too, if Tim isn't able to. You said Kyle may be able to for you though?
What do you need?
I have a fund, Festival could easily buy out your contract for the duration. Potentially Martin's too, if Tim isn't able to. You said Kyle may be able to for you though?
FINE. I'll do the damned breathing.
[She's not happy about it, but she does it. She's even more unhappy that it works.
Don't you dare say 'I told you so' about this.
[She's not happy about it, but she does it. She's even more unhappy that it works.
Don't you dare say 'I told you so' about this.
[He does not, in fact. Just a single question.]
Do you trust him?
Do you trust him?
[It's an easy one to answer.]
With my life.
With my life.
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