[ He wishes he was drunk. But he isn't. He's stone cold sober, and he has to stay that way. He hates it.
And he hates how purposefully stupid Chris is being. He's a smart man, beautiful and capable, with a bold heart and Jacob feels so aggrieved impossibly angry that this is what is happening between them. Why? Because Chris had thrown in his lot with Jon Sims, a fucking coward, a rude, unpleasant creature that will snap and snarl and spit poison but won't actually get his hands dirty.
Chris can do better. Jacob isn't better. He's not even on par. He knows that much. That's why he tries. He forces himself to read what he writes and re-write it, over and over.]
You told me to leave. And then this last few days, I thought thought might see you. I didn't have the courage to go find you, but I hoped you might come to me. And then you signed with Sims and still didn't reach out to me, just to let me know? I know you don't need my blessing or my approval or anything like that but I'd tell you if I was living somewhere else with a new dominant.
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And he hates how purposefully stupid Chris is being. He's a smart man, beautiful and capable, with a bold heart and Jacob feels so aggrieved impossibly angry that this is what is happening between them. Why? Because Chris had thrown in his lot with Jon Sims, a fucking coward, a rude, unpleasant creature that will snap and snarl and spit poison but won't actually get his hands dirty.
Chris can do better. Jacob isn't better. He's not even on par. He knows that much. That's why he tries. He forces himself to read what he writes and re-write it, over and over.]
You told me to leave. And then this last few days, I thought thought might see you. I didn't have the courage to go find you, but I hoped you might come to me. And then you signed with Sims and still didn't reach out to me, just to let me know? I know you don't need my blessing or my approval or anything like that but I'd tell you if I was living somewhere else with a new dominant.
And...
And I assumed you were done with me.