[ The second text follows a moment later, well. Five minutes or so, because Jacob doesn't know if he can say what he needs to like this. He doesn't trust his fingers to write it out and he doesn't know if he should call. But he's worried that Chris wouldn't answer, so he tries as best he can to explain. Things have changed since then. He didn't answer then, because he didn't know, not for sure. Was it lust, and lust alone? Was it friendship, deep and strong, with that added desire on top? Had this feeling grown since then, or just blossomed? Jacob doesn't know.]
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If you asked now, you'd get a different answer.