[ It's said easily, a confession of truth and understanding, because Jacob feels so much of that himself.]
It's not easy. None of us are born with everything we need and learning it is bloody hard. You do a better job than me of making peace. I... I should have come to you sooner. But I was... you know how I am. When you told me you cared for Sims the other day, before... I think in part that was half the reason I wanted to go smack him.
[ Damn the jealousy in him. He hoped he was doing better, he really did. But then some curve ball hits him and he's back to the beginning again, wondering why he isn't good enough.]
I'm sorry too. It was... the whole thing was a fucking mess. I was fighting shadows that weren't there and then I was fighting you and you and never want to do that. I don't want to lose you again. Ever.
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[ It's said easily, a confession of truth and understanding, because Jacob feels so much of that himself.]
It's not easy. None of us are born with everything we need and learning it is bloody hard. You do a better job than me of making peace. I... I should have come to you sooner. But I was... you know how I am. When you told me you cared for Sims the other day, before... I think in part that was half the reason I wanted to go smack him.
[ Damn the jealousy in him. He hoped he was doing better, he really did. But then some curve ball hits him and he's back to the beginning again, wondering why he isn't good enough.]
I'm sorry too. It was... the whole thing was a fucking mess. I was fighting shadows that weren't there and then I was fighting you and you and never want to do that. I don't want to lose you again. Ever.
And especially not because I'm a bloody fool.