Aah.. [He hadn't been born with magic, he couldn't imagine trying to ignore it if you had it, but he could picture several reasons why.]

Well, not sure I'm much help for it other than practicing with and on, I've never had to 'learn' same way as others. That said, seems to me you're in a good place for learning, there's plenty here who know magic and can help teach it. Be happy to talk with you about it if you need, though.