[ He can't leave it like that. Chris withdrawing and himself causing it and no Amelia this time to keep the peace. When had he lost that ability? When had he not been able to reach out and have Chris understand and meet him halfway?
But that's unfair. Chris is not alright. He wants to be, he's trying to be, but there's no clear path from something like this to being better. Maybe it's that he didn't go through it too this time. The Pit - because this feels like after the Pit - was a shared misery and this is Chris' alone.
Fuck that.
He's not thinking of what Chris texted last when he comes up on the Hollow. He's not stopping to think of why Amelia would be surprised when she knows full well he has a physical relationship with Chris. He's thinking of how he said it. Long formal words with more letters to put distance between them. ]
That's not how this works.
[ He's running now, maybe trying to outrun his frustration, maybe running to Chris before it feels like it's too late, or maybe just running to get there that much faster but he doesn't send another text until he's outside the front door, skipping the bell and giving the door three heavy raps with the side of his fist.
If he's not answered within a few minutes, that's when he sends another message. ]
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But that's unfair. Chris is not alright. He wants to be, he's trying to be, but there's no clear path from something like this to being better. Maybe it's that he didn't go through it too this time. The Pit - because this feels like after the Pit - was a shared misery and this is Chris' alone.
Fuck that.
He's not thinking of what Chris texted last when he comes up on the Hollow. He's not stopping to think of why Amelia would be surprised when she knows full well he has a physical relationship with Chris. He's thinking of how he said it. Long formal words with more letters to put distance between them. ]
That's not how this works.
[ He's running now, maybe trying to outrun his frustration, maybe running to Chris before it feels like it's too late, or maybe just running to get there that much faster but he doesn't send another text until he's outside the front door, skipping the bell and giving the door three heavy raps with the side of his fist.
If he's not answered within a few minutes, that's when he sends another message. ]
Open the door.