[ Which is the diplomatic way of saying he's in a constant state of teetering between doggedly pushing through anything that comes his way and deciding that staying in bed for days is an entirely normal thing to do.
He can't keep going on like this, pretending everything is fine and going through the motions. He's going to turn out numb, and that's even more terrifying than this feeling of something large an sinister clenching his chest. ]
neither of us are alright I hate this.
You feel so far from me and I know why but I don't know how to fix it.
[ I don't how to bring us back to where we were.]
I used to know but something in me broke these last few months.
I'm not even sure this makes sense. I want you to lean on me. I know you don't want to because of what happened But I want to fix it I need to fix it because the alternative can't happen. I won't let it
Please just talk to me. Even if it hurts. Especially if it hurts.
[ Begging isn't going to help. He might just be pushing Chris further away, but the words fall out of him like spilled over tears. He's a little glad Chris can't see or hear him like this. ]
no subject
[ Which is the diplomatic way of saying he's in a constant state of teetering between doggedly pushing through anything that comes his way and deciding that staying in bed for days is an entirely normal thing to do.
He can't keep going on like this, pretending everything is fine and going through the motions. He's going to turn out numb, and that's even more terrifying than this feeling of something large an sinister clenching his chest. ]
neither of us are alright
I hate this.
You feel so far from me and I know why but I don't know how to fix it.
[ I don't how to bring us back to where we were.]
I used to know but something in me broke these last few months.
I'm not even sure this makes sense.
I want you to lean on me. I know you don't want to because of what happened
But I want to fix it
I need to fix it because the alternative can't happen.
I won't let it
Please just talk to me. Even if it hurts.
Especially if it hurts.
[ Begging isn't going to help. He might just be pushing Chris further away, but the words fall out of him like spilled over tears. He's a little glad Chris can't see or hear him like this. ]