[He shakes his head again and decidedly doesn't look at Crais, just his hair.]

No, that's not... [There's that choking feeling in the back of his throat that suffocates his words.]

I've...I had.

[Gods dammit. He swallows around nothing and pushes through other words, a different track to keep moving.]

Forget it. It's not important leastways, not a problem to worry about until it is, so don't mind it.