[And that was perhaps the brattiest thing Bash has ever said in his life. Another pause, this time as he gets his ducks in a row to answer.]
1. Because I don't always let myself believe that I deserve to be cared for. I need to care for everyone, but no one needs to care for me. 2. By putting all that burden on my me, when I fail--because that's not an if, I'm not perfect and I am taking a lot onto my plate--it's gonna feel like a blow against my self-worth, which is already...uhhh. 3. I am, actually, actively, responsible for the well-being of three people in this city, myself and my submissives. I need to have something in reserve for them and can't always be stretched so thin I can't help them. 4. I keep this up, people are going to feel like they can rely on me, and I like the idea of people relying on me, but there's a point where that goes so far that they stop trying to rely on themself.
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[And that was perhaps the brattiest thing Bash has ever said in his life. Another pause, this time as he gets his ducks in a row to answer.]
1. Because I don't always let myself believe that I deserve to be cared for. I need to care for everyone, but no one needs to care for me.
2. By putting all that burden on my me, when I fail--because that's not an if, I'm not perfect and I am taking a lot onto my plate--it's gonna feel like a blow against my self-worth, which is already...uhhh.
3. I am, actually, actively, responsible for the well-being of three people in this city, myself and my submissives. I need to have something in reserve for them and can't always be stretched so thin I can't help them.
4. I keep this up, people are going to feel like they can rely on me, and I like the idea of people relying on me, but there's a point where that goes so far that they stop trying to rely on themself.
...uuuh, I miss any of the big ones?