Dear Chris, I hope this finds you well. I am not entirely sure how to start this, but I figured after the confusion of our last conversation, perhaps it would be better to write it out instead. I prefer the inkwell and paper anyway. I am sorry for any of the confusion on my part. I have been trying to be more aware of others, of my relationship to them, in the midst of going through something equally vulnerable. I had only meant to extend that I would care about the things you would like doing, but realizing now that 'like' would be more complex and subjective. Your response had felt in some way a rejection which is not something I am unused to, but given our history and what else is going on, perhaps opening up insecurities I have not yet dealt with. Which is why I wished to step away, not wishing to say something I would ever regret to say to you as one of my oldest and dearest friends here. I hope to not minimize your own experiences, who you are and what you do truly like. I never meant to extend anything different or change what we have established, because I have truly enjoyed all of my time with you. So please forgive me for anything I might have said that was untoward. Your friend, Eloise
A letter dropped at his door
I hope this finds you well. I am not entirely sure how to start this, but I figured after the confusion of our last conversation, perhaps it would be better to write it out instead. I prefer the inkwell and paper anyway.
I am sorry for any of the confusion on my part. I have been trying to be more aware of others, of my relationship to them, in the midst of going through something equally vulnerable. I had only meant to extend that I would care about the things you would like doing, but realizing now that 'like' would be more complex and subjective.
Your response had felt in some way a rejection which is not something I am unused to, but given our history and what else is going on, perhaps opening up insecurities I have not yet dealt with. Which is why I wished to step away, not wishing to say something I would ever regret to say to you as one of my oldest and dearest friends here. I hope to not minimize your own experiences, who you are and what you do truly like. I never meant to extend anything different or change what we have established, because I have truly enjoyed all of my time with you.
So please forgive me for anything I might have said that was untoward.
Your friend,
Eloise