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[chrisisofaith]

done
love you too

[guylining]

hey also


thanks.
for the scar prompt.

[chrisisofaith]

you're welcome
i'm sorry it was needed, but figured you'd feel worse if however long that lasted, you went without



for the record, covering it is entirely your business, but
well if you didn't i don't think that'd be a bad thing
you've my support and understanding either way

[guylining]

it's habit at this point

at first i just didn't want anyone asking me about it. it was really hard to talk about

less so now. but still wearing the glamour feels more normal to me

[chrisisofaith]

then glamour all you like
none of their business anyway



out of curiosity, why haven't you put it in a tattoo?

[guylining]

i just wasn't really doing that yet. it was like a year and a half ago, i was only starting to get into tattoos and wasn't doing them myself yet

i guess i could do it now

idk. most people are probably too self-focused to notice it anyway

[chrisisofaith]

too self focused or don’t care. the ones whose opinion likely matters won’t care beyond what it means to you

but no need to tattoo it if it’s hurt is lessening naturally

[guylining]

i'll stick with the piercing

maybe one day i won't want it at all

[chrisisofaith]

want to know something no one else in this city does?

i've told several that scars are signs you survived. things to be proud of, you included
i hold to that


but i still had some scars removed back home. i couldn't abide by their being there
so i get it. if you never let go of the piercing, i'll certainly not blame you

[guylining]

i get you

the thing is i like most scars. i've asked people to scar me before

but it matters, i think, what you associate them with. if it's not a good memory then it's not a good scar

and i didn't survive. that's the thing. i died and i shouldn't have come back, i only did that because of this place's weirdness. it's not like some terrible attack that i survived by the skin of my teeth, i went down. and it was fast, and then it was done. i'm not a survivor at all.

[chrisisofaith]

i don't think i have any good memories to the scars that stuck around, but i came by them honest enough

the ones i removed were burns on my face
got them just after i got this face so it just didn't work out

but i get that
i know we've talked that over, that your death should have been just that and kinder for it
but you did survive, even if it was this place. you didn't survive the encounter, but you're surviving every day you have to live with the memory and experience

circumstances don't change your strength in it, love

[guylining]

no i guess they don't

i just feel like this scar is one i have to live with, you know? not one i'm glad to have

i also really like your face. like don't get me wrong, i would've liked it with burn scars too, but. i like it now, i'm glad it looks how it does. you were always really pretty, you know? you were before and you are now, but. you look more yourself now. it suits you.

[chrisisofaith]

and what you feel to it is all that matters at day’s end. it’s your body and your memories.

thank you nate, that means a lot. all of it. i don’t take much to others’ opinions, but yours holds weight for me.

[guylining]

well you know i'd be into you either way
i'm just glad you're happier now.