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[wolfehawke]

"That's not it," he replies, shaking his head. "I know you value me. I also know you're pragmatic and if someone else you love needs your help more you're going to give your attention where it's more needed. As well you should."

Closing his eyes, Wolfe tries to sort through how he's feeling from how he thinks of it. They're at odds. He knows Chris loves him, observes it in so much of how he acts around Wolfe versus around other people. But he also knows that Jon is on his end of things as well, and when his and the Archivists needs are at odds, he'd rather step back preemptively than be told Jon's need is greater and that he has to wait.

It should be fine. He can wait, he can manage, but what he doesn't like, he realizes now, is being put second. It's one thing if he does it himself, but to be forced into that position is... His head and his heart are in concert that he doesn't want that.

"I know you said Jon's done his grieving, but if he hadn't... It felt better to me to not say anything than to ask and be turned away. I don't know what I would do with that. Probably grin and bear it, honestly, but I so seldom need that extra support so stepping back myself seems better than even the possibility of being turned down." He smiles a brittle smile at his shoe, not looking up at Chris but clearly out of embarrassment at himself than any sort of anger at his partner. "I'm sorry, I know this is one of my less endearing faults."