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[rogueinladysclothing]

[Anything else she was about to snap at him is out the window.]

Apology accepted. We'll deal with the rest later.

Why are you going to the People Zoo? Is there any getting you out of it? How did this happen? Can I assist in any way?

[chrisisofaith]

[He smiles a bit to himself for her series of questions.]

Jon got a citation and they're finally punishing his subs for it. He's going to jail for a week and we're being sent there for 'safe keeping' since we can't possibly take care of ourselves.

Tim's going to pick up Martin, I think. Once he has, I'll call Kyle to come get me; even though we're wards, other doms can still come buy us, I guess.

I'll be alright, Amelia.

[rogueinladysclothing]

[It's good the new house is set up for her throwing so many knives in rapid succession, because this is fucking necessary right now.]

Buy you? No.

Tell me the fee and I'll pay for your whole week. You shouldn't have to deal with someone deciding they can do as they please with you because you were in the Zoo. You can stay at Marzipan Terrace and I'll fight off anyone who tries anything.

I want to help, Chris.

[chrisisofaith]

If you buy me out, I have to stay with you. You'll own me.

Besides, I'm not leaving before I know Martin is safe.

If I can't get a hold of Kyle, I'll call you next, but I don't think they're going to hurt me if I'm not even there for an actual crime.

[rogueinladysclothing]

Aloïs and I have a spare bedroom at Shadows' Rest. You'd be left to your own devices in our home. The city may tell you I own you, but I wouldn't treat you as such. I'll play their games, but I'm not forcing anything on you if it comes to that.

Is Tim ready to take Martin? Does he need money for that? I will do what it takes to get you out and so help me, if that means I'm springing Martin too, I'll do it.

I don't leave any of mine behind.

[chrisisofaith]

I appreciate that, I do.
I found out after we had our little exchange or I might have mentioned it sooner.

Jon's going to send Tim the money, he'll take him. We'll be alright, I'm probably going to spend the week on the beach, but I'll text you once I'm out, deal?

Meantime, just focus on your time with your new boyfriend, I'm sure there's plenty to distract yourself with.

[rogueinladysclothing]

You had better, or I'm tracking you down. You know I can.

[Dreams, that is most certainly her face turning red and heart pounding. How did he...?]

I have no idea what you're talking about.

[This is going to fall apart quickly, but shut up.]

[chrisisofaith]

[He doesn't deign to answer that first part....he does know it, but also he can just picture her face right now. Worth it.]

He's my best friend. You think he didn't tell me?

Proud and impressed you spoke up. I hope you're happy.

[rogueinladysclothing]

[This certainly is her swallowing hard and pacing as she types, deletes, re-types, deletes again, and then finally sends a message.]

I have no idea what I'm doing. I only

[Is this bad to admit? Wolfe already knows, and Chris knows they're... something, so it's... fine, right? ...she'll assume so.]

It was only fair to tell him. He deserved the chance to decide for himself.

[No she didn't deliberately not touch the 'I hope you're happy' part. Nope.]

[chrisisofaith]

[Okay, he can take a little pity..if only because, more often than not, the times he's told someone he's loved them have come with him crying and trying to convince them not to love him back in the same breath, so...]

From one mess to another, I promise you no one knows what they're doing. I doubt Hawke knows what he's doing.

So you continue on as you were with more readily available kisses and see where things go.

[rogueinladysclothing]

[That... helps. A little. Amelia's still very flustered right now.]

I'm not certain you understand how terrifying this is for me. I've worked to be alone my entire adult life. This wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't supposed to have feelings and he wasn't

[Deep breaths. Dreams, why must this be so hard?]

I'm sorry. Wolfe has heard all of this. I don't need to repeat it to you.

I don't want to fuck this up. He's a good man and I truly love him. Hurting him would be... beyond a travesty in my eyes.

[chrisisofaith]

I think I understand perfectly.

I wasn't made for this
I'm meant for other things
I could be a danger to him
I'll only snare him down
What if I ruin his life? What if he's making a mistake?
Have I tricked him into thinking he wants this?

I'm sure there's plenty more, I could go on, but tell me if I'm off my mark

[rogueinladysclothing]

[...sigh.]

You know you're on it.

But you forgot to add that I will hurt him. That's inevitable here. I've told him as much.

[chrisisofaith]

Of course you will. Not because you're you but because two people being intimate with each other will hurt each other.

It's what you do when it happens that matters, not the if.

[rogueinladysclothing]

How is that different? I don't want to do that at all. He deserves better than someone who loves him hurting him in the first place.

[Can he see her thoughts spiraling? She certainly feels it right now.]

[chrisisofaith]

No one wants to do that. And maybe he deserves someone who won't hurt him but that person doesn't exist. You're caught on a notion that love is clean and simple when it's as messy as hate or anger.

[She's panicking, isn't she? He feels like he can hear it.]

Amelia. Take a breath. Count in five and out four. Tell me when you've done this.

[rogueinladysclothing]

You absolute ass. I'm fine. I don't need to do your breathing exercise because I'm right. I know love isn't simple, but I don't believe for a single second that he doesn't deserve better than someone who will knowingly hurt him at some point!

[No breathing, but there is a yell across the patio off the back of the house that helps.]

I'm not about to run or do anything rash, but believe me when I tell you this will always be a worry of mine.

[chrisisofaith]

You're not making your case for someone thinking rationally

[rogueinladysclothing]

FINE. I'll do the damned breathing.

[She's not happy about it, but she does it. She's even more unhappy that it works.

Don't you dare say 'I told you so' about this.

[chrisisofaith]

[He does not, in fact. Just a single question.]

Do you trust him?

[rogueinladysclothing]

[It's an easy one to answer.]

With my life.

[chrisisofaith]

Do you respect him?

[rogueinladysclothing]

I do. Completely.

[Not that she's showing it well right now.]

[chrisisofaith]

Then trust his judgement.
If you wouldn't question him otherwise, don't start with your own self-recriminating doubts.

He's foolish at times, but he's not so reckless with his own heart. He'll fight with you and support you and check you. He may very well hurt you, but if you trust each other and respect each other, you'll figure it out, fix it, and get stronger for it.

Relationships are about building yourselves stronger together.

[rogueinladysclothing]

[She's going to need a few minutes to read that over and over - as well as to collapse into a corner and sob about it - before she can answer.]

That how it's supposed to work? I've not seen it happen in front of me.

[She can't remember her parents' relationship enough to know if it's true.]